Category: Social Talk

Job Hunting

Job hunting is a pain in my ass sometimes.  I look and fill out numerous online applications, submit my resume to dozens of sites, send out emails to various company HR reps and all I get is the “generic” thank you for your submission email stating that my application is being reviewed.  I really know that my application is at that bottom of a long list of emails that probably never get looked at.

Even for a simple customer service job that I definitely have the qualifications for.  WTF?  Hell over half of the jobs I try to apply for now, I am overqualified.  I want to see if I at least get a second email telling me that, but no such luck.  in my own field of accounting, I can’t even get a callback for an interview.

I know what you are going to say, just keep on sending them out, perseverance pays off in the end.  All I have to say to that is “pfft!”  I need something now.  I cannot keep on like this.  No insurance, low pay, no sense of holding my head above water.  I need something NOW!

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have a sense of entitlement, that I want things handed to me.  I have the skills, I just need a place to use them effectively.

Lack of updates

Yes there has been a lack of updates on my part.  I know that I told you that I would be writing more and all the things that I had planned, but real-life just happens to get in the way.  I had a very stong bout of depression that sapped my will to even try to write.  Couple that with marital problems and that is a recipr for failure.

I am looking into starting my own business, but I don’t have any idea what do I want to do.  Do I provide a service like bookkeeping,  or do I sell a product like men’s clothing. and related accessories.  Both are viable options, but I still am not sure.

Right now I am looking up how to prepare a business plan to raise start-up funds.  once I have a ballpark figure and a solid plan, I can go to banks and investment group and ask for money.

I am leaning more towards the clothing store because I know how it is to buy clothes that fit at a reasonable price.  It is an impossibility.  The clothes are overpriced, cheaply made sometimes, and they have a limited number of sizes available.  I know there is a niche for it, as I see a number of big and tall men walk through the mall every day that I am here.

It just makes sense doesn’t it?

Fitting in

I was at a gathering on Saturday for a graduation party, and I looked around at all the people there.  I realized that I did not fit in there.  How you may ask?  Well for one thing, I am not Catholic, nor am  I Caucasian.  I am not wealthy, well-off, or a professional.  What I am is a nigger.  Yes I said it.  A nigger.  And what does that mean?  It means that you are tolerated up to a point, but you are really not wanted.

As I drove home, I pondered why, and I begun to realize that even though I have a close knit group of friends, I don’t fit in there either.  I am older than all of them, and only 1/4 as talented.   No matter how many times I run it around in my head, I always come up with the same outcome.  I don’t fit in.

Even with my co-workers, I don’t fit in.  I work at a gaming center in NC and even though I like video games, computers, and have some accounting background, I still don’t fit in.  I have come to realize that as a nigger, I don’t fit in anywhere.  I will always be on the outside looking to fit in with everyone else.  I tried to go to the beat of my own drum, but it only alienated me even more.

Now at 43, I guess that is my lot in life.  Wandering around not fitting in anywhere.

Life’s a bitch, and she knows it…

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