01/08/2010
I know that I promised not to post anything depressing on my blog, but I have to put this down. I suffer with severe chronic depression. I have been suffering with this for over 20+ years. back when I was young and just starting college is where I think it began. I have always been self conscious about my looks, and weight. So much so that I used to get up earlier than everyone else in college to take a shower because I was so ashamed of how I looked. I had gotten up enough courage to tell this girl that I loved how I felt. Well turns out she did not feel the same about me. That hurt like a knife stabbed in my gut. From there various ups and downs over the years, through several jobs and three cities, I end up here. Severely depressed, marriage falling apart, and a son with ADHD, a mood disorder, and anger issues. We have appointments with psychiatrists, psychologists, several types of medication and now coming up is occupational therapy. All that and I still feel like that young guy back in college with the knife in his gut.
I don’t know anymore…
01/03/2010
Yep everyone has done it. From Anderson Cooper on CNN, to Wil Wheaton on his blog, everyone has done a recap of 2009 and either cronicled things that happened in the news, to things that happened in their life. As much as I would like to relay everything that has happened to me in 2009, I will not do that. I told someone that I would not be making anymore depressing posts.
So here in a nutshell is a mini-review of 2009…
- I started working as Operations Manager for a small LAN center here in Durham
- Started back to playing tabletop D&D again (4th edition)
- Started thinking about opening up my own men’s clothing store (still on the back burner)
- Left my job as Operations Manager
- Working on plans for opening up my own LAN center ( still in my head, nothing on paper yet.)
- Went on a cruise to the Bahamas. ( went on Royal Caribbean, I highly recommend this fleet. the boat was AWESOME!!)
- I became a great-uncle!!!
- I finally got a laptop! (that is what I am using now to make my posts. Flexibility FTW!)
- Started playing Champions Online. (Superheroes FTW!)
- Found out a friend of mine has cancer AGAIN (WTF), and has only 6 months to live (major bummer)
- And finally, made a commitment to blog everyday for Nablopomo. (if I can get a whole month under my belt, I can write more.)
So there it is, some of the highlights of 2009 in my life. Thanks for reading…
12/06/2009
Entrepreneurship,
It’s what makes the world go ’round. It is not the big companies that do it. It’s the small businesses that keep the country going. I want to jump into that pool and swim with the fishes, but I cannot decide what type of business I want to run. My initial thought was a mens big and tall clothing store, but going over what I need to do, It would take too long to get things together and then get the resources together to make it work.
Maybe something a little more manageable. Like mens accessories or maybe something else. I don’t know yet.
Maybe a gaming center…lol
